Look who's eating big people food!

So there I was, with Jonah in my arms, cutting up an apple for Jed. Jonah likes the taste of apples, so I let him suck on one of the pieces. However, the apple was too soft and it was starting to break up. So I peeled a granny smith apple, but it was a bit too sour. Poor Jonah was beside himself as he really, REALLY wanted that apple. So I broke open a container of sweet potato baby food. I thought, lets see what he can do with this. That child ate, and ate and ate!!! He ate half of a stage 2 container!!! He LOVED it. He was obviously very ready for it. He never made any yucky faces nor did he spit any back out. All my children had a few tries at food, pushing it back out, not sure what to do with it before they got the hang of it. Not Jonah boy. The poor thing is teething or something. He is not a happy camper. Here are two pics. One of just Jonah enjoying this new food experience, the other of both boys enjoying the sweet potatoes.

Our Christmas

Christmas was quiet. Relatively speaking that is :-) Christmas Eve over the years has dwindled down to nothing. I did make the pierogies for Christmas Eve. I had a lot of help, as I did with all of our Christmas preparations. I wrapped one present, Isabella did the rest. This was a good thing seeing as I had caught the buggies. Hey, it takes a while for the garlic to work! ;-) Hee, hee. So we found ourselves on Christmas day being loudly greeted by a swarm of girls who woke a wee bit too early. We went light this year for gifts, one each (with the exception of Jed who got a "side" gift of a rubber duckie, and Jonah who got two teething rings). Isabella and Saoirse got real looking baby dolls. Moira and Flannery share a castle with horses and people. Jed got a tractor/plus a rubber duckie, and Jonah got the teething rings. Let me tell you, it is so nice not to have a whole bunch of stuff!! Then we got ready for Jeremiah's parents who arrived around noon. We opened some very lovely presents. The girls each got these neat t-shirts. They have what seems to be just line drawings on their white shirts...until....they go outside in the sun. then the whole drawing gets filled in with color! Very neat. My best gift I saved to tell about last. Isabella, on behalf of the girls, got me a pretty necklace. It is a gold heart with the word "Mom" inside of it. Daddy helped with the choosing. Later in the afternoon we started dinner preparations. We had ham, a LOT of ham, pierogies, chicken, collard greens, sweet potatoes, mashed potatoes, garlic green beans and the beloved cranberry sauce. Now we have lots of left overs :-) I have been looking up ham casserole recipes! If you know of any good ones please send them my way!

Flannery is the last of the girls to have the pink eye. She is now getting the sore throat part of it. And Jed is the last of the boys to have it. He has been handling it well, but has looked horrible. The whole area around his eyes have been swollen. The poor thing woke up this morning with his eyes glued shut. I thought he would be freaking out, but he wasn't. We had to get a wash cloth and wipe his eyes really well for him to be able to open them. Jonah boy is THE chunk miester!! Jeremiah decided to weigh him the other day. I thought he was kidding when he told me how much he weighed......17 pounds and 7 ounces!! He just turned 5 months old! I was looking at baby pictures of Flannery and Saoirse, Jonah really is a cross between them. His personality (thus far) is also a cross between them. Very neat.

Jeremiah and I continue to talk about the changes that need to go on here in our home. The first important step will be the changes that need to take place with ourselves. I was able to have a long conversation with Isabella about some things in her life that need changing. With all of this talking it is hard to put together a concrete plan. Not necessarily a Step 1, Step 2, etc. kind of plan. But certainly something that we can look to and see if we are working on the things that need working on and to keep us on track. But the bulk of all of these issues are spiritual. And those are some hard things to measure!

The castle! The girls have really been enjoying it.

Jed and his tractors. You can see his duckie too.

Isabella and her new "baby" Ruthie. The girls gave informed me that I am a grandmother. They lined up all their dolls and I am a Grandmother to six! Ha, ha.

Saoirse and her new "baby" Abigail (although her name changes often!) .

Baby cakes is awake. He has been very interested in making new sounds. Too funny. He is even experimenting making them while nursing. He's choked a bit as a result. Hey, live and learn!

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas to everyone! I do hope it is a blessed time with your family recounting the Lord's birth. We will be having Jeremiah's parents over for the day tomorrow. We have all been sick. I have to tell you all about my "fight" with my sister. Things said between us:

Tracy: You never listen to me, no one listens to me.

Me: You are yelling at me, you don't love me.

Now before your eyes bug out let me just say it was all in fun! I know, silly. And do you know what are argument was about? Garlic. Yes, garlic. You see it went something like this:

Me: Ugh, the kids are sick, so and so has this....

Tracy: Your kids are ALWAYS sick.

Me: That's not true.

Tracy: (conferring with her hubby) Hey Joe, how often are Kerri's kids sick? Joe: All the time.

Me: Hey...we weren't sick for a few weeks these past few months.

Tracy: My kids have only been sick for a few days these past few months. Aren't you giving them the garlic drops, I thought you bought those..

Me: Um, I did buy them...but I haven't been giving them any.

Tracy: I give my kids a few drops a day, and they don't get sick. See, you don't listen to me.

Me: Hey, I did listen to you. When you first told me about the drops it was in relation to them being able to ward of bug bites. And to help with Jed's yeast problem. See, I did listen to you.

Tracy: But you haven't been giving it to them.

Me: That's because it's not bug season!

Tracy: I know I told you about it keeping them from being sick.....you never listen to me, no one listens to me!

Me: I did listen to you! You're yelling at me, you don't love me.

By now we are laughing hysterically. I am very happy to announce my children have been getting garlic drops multiple times a day! So there :-P

I was giving them some homeopathic drops. From everyone who had this illness it is the norm for you to be in bed for three days. Isabella, being that she gets everything 10 times worse, was in bed for one day. The rest of us didn't have to be in bed! I did take a one hour rest time yesterday and today. But, I think that says something. Not to mention the drops really, really helped stop the pink eye in its tracks. It is still hard to get around the workings of homeopathy. And it is hard to think in a homeopathic way in regards to illness. The homeopathic medicines do not suppress your symptoms. So for the first day we were all feeling yucky. However, homeopathy does help your body to fight the illness. So you have to be patient. But it really cut down on illness length and severity big time!

Well I must be off. I need to get a few things done tonight. I'll leave you all with these pictures:

Jedidiah reviewing paperwork :-) I'm not sure what he was looking at, but too cute non the less.

Jonah, doing what he does best....eating toes! Look at that pudge!

Just a cute Jonah picture.

One of the 3-D paper snowflakes we made. They look really nice in the windows. Isabella also strung up some cotton balls to make the effect of snow falling. The combination looks very cute. I don't have pics of the cotton.

Its been over two weeks since I last wrote!!

Wow! It's been a while. I keep meaning to get on and then something comes up. Not anything bad, just busy stuff. Like right now I have a whiny baby, making it hard to type. This baby, I tell ya....he's being a fussy one. I think he is teething. So that means less sleep, more fuss.



We had a wonderful conference here two weeks ago. We ended up hosting one gentleman for the weekend and three other young men for one night. I was just absolutely stunned by these young men's manners. They were so polite and helpful. Totally the opposite picture that the world paints for what young men should be like. It was very encouraging!! I was able to hear a lot of the conference this year :-) It was very uplifting and challenging at the same time. A lot of things that the Lord has laid on my heart just came together that weekend. I think I am still sorting some things out though.

We were going to go caroling this evening, but unfortunately sickness has hit the other families. I suppose we shall spend our evening singing here in our home and eating up all the yummy cookies :-) We've been eating WAY too many sweets!!! I. need. sugar. Ha, ha.

On Jed news...he's doing pretty well. I put back a small (VERY small) amount of fat into his diet and he broke out with a rash and his teeth grinding has been much worse. Interesting, very interesting. But despite the fact that the fat gave him the runs for almost a week, he has gained weight. Bravo.

I have been spending my "free" time reading up on homeopathy. I would really like to be able to help our family and others to use homeopathy instead of the common OTC meds. Homeopathy is just so much more safer and effective in eliminating the problem as opposed to covering up the problem like OTCs do. There is lots to learn. It seems almost like a foreign language. I guess it seems that way only because homeopathy's premises on disease is totally different from what I've been taught all my life. It is very interesting and refreshing all at the same time.

My "free" time has been very limited lately, as one would notice on the lack of posts I have been putting up. Jeremiah and I had started to talk about changes that needed to take place in our family these past few weeks. No real changes had been made as we had been in talk mode. However a situation arose that has made us jump into implementing those "talks". I am so very thankful that we have a body of believers who are of like mind and who care enough to bring up 'hard' issues. On top of that we are still working out our school curriculum decisions. I think we will be slowly working in one or two things at a time. My goal is to have a few things lined up for those slow times around here. There will be a lot more working going on over here and less play. Not to mention a whole lot less movies. Actually all entertaining movies are out. We are keeping all educational movies. It was interesting that in the past few weeks I had really taken a notice about even our "good" movies. We had been letting them watch Little House on the Prairie. I never knew how much those movies were not in line with our family vision! Yikes!!! It is amazing when you really start looking at EVERYTHING with scripture as being the measuring stick.

Baby is awake, so I need to go. I have some pictures of some 3-D paper snowflakes we have made that I would like to put up. Maybe later on today when Jeremiah is home.

I wrote the following on Jed a few days ago. It was at the bottom of this post as it was in edit form. So I hadn't seen it. This is a bit more indepth than the above info on him.

Jedidiah is doing OK. He has been Prilosec free for over a month now!!!! Truly amazing! He was looking so great that the doctor asked for me to take a picture of him. I couldn't get to it that day and when he woke up the following morning he looked horrid!!!He was a fussy mess for the next two days. Since then he is looking on the slim side. He may have grown taller. But he also lost a few ounces, however he has not "lost" anything by mouth. Hmmmmmm. As I told someone earlier, I am ready to get off this roller coaster. So seeing as how he was slimming down I put some fat back in his diet (coconut oil). And two things happened. 1. He started grinding his teeth a whole lot more. 2. He broke out with a rash on his upper torso, one which he would commonly have in the past. Insert a picture of person banging head against wall here!



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I don't have any great ideas for a title!

Hello all! I pray that all your Thanksgivings were good ones :-) We had a quiet time here with Jeremiah's parents. A traditional turkey (which, by the way was not the traditional foods of the pilgrims.....we'll get to that later), real mashed potatoes, yummy cranberry sauce, a fruit crisp and a no-bake pumpkin pie, plus a few other things. Our tummies were stuffed :-) This week was also the start of our Jesse tree, and the lighting of the advent candles. I feel bad we didn't have a thankful tree this year. Oh, well. We had a productive weekend as well. We got our Christmas tree up. Isabella and Moira single handily brought the tree down and put it together! Not to mention that although I made up the cut-out cookie dough, Isabella cut and baked ALL the cookies! We are talking at least 12 to 14 dozen cookies, at least! I made up four pans of brownies, and two large batches of hot chocolate mix. We have a busy week and month ahead of us. Tomorrow I have a ton of stuff to make and do. I have a call with the homeopathic doctor this week, a well child visit for Jonah this week as well, plus we are having prayer meeting at our house on Wed. and we are hosting a young single man and a family of 5 here at our house for the conference this weekend. Whew! I need a nap just thinking about it all :-)

I also had a wonderful revelation this week as well in regards to parenting. I think it would be a bit much to type it all out. But it took a huge weight off of me. I was praying for a family who is in financial straights when the Lord spoke to me. He basically showed me that I could totally rely on Him to meet our needs when Jeremiah has been without a job, yet I don't trust Him in the outcome of our children. Hmmmmm....Yup, He got me! I think its because with a job there there isn't anything (besides praying) that I can do, yet with parenting there are quite a few things that the Bible itself says I am to do. And so the weight of parenting has been on my shoulders. Not where it is supposed to be. I wish I was an eloquent writer and I could make better sense with all of this. It was a profound revelation for me. My sister also had a profound revelation, which has to do with education, or the lack thereof. Time does not allow me right now to get into it. The basic idea is that our education was lacking in real facts. Like the turkey, pilrgrims and indians. The real thanksgiving did not happen for the reasons we learned in school. Someday I will have to get back to this idea of "education", but our computer is about to lock me out of the internet.

I have come across a very, very interesting article (interview really) on vaccinations. Very interesting. With the web it is so hard to know what is real and what is not, so I try to be careful. However, this is just too interesting not to pass on. The interviewer has some other articles he wrote that were intriguing. Look at the one on HIV. Things that make you go, hmmmm.

I must be off, the computer is about to lock up. We have it set on a timer so if this post is a bit confusing it is because I am in a rush to beat the clock. And with all the stuff I have to do for the week, I won't be able to post again till next weekend.

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Wow, a whole week...

I'm starting this post with pictures only because I am too lazy to drag them all down below the post! I asked Jeremiah to take a picture of me with each of the girls when we had our bonfire. This is Saoirse and I.


Moira and I taking a pose before the fire. our fire was multipurpose. We got rid of some movies and books that were not fit to pass on.

Flannery and I all toasty in front of the fire. I think the temps were only in the low 50's! Ha, ha. We've had some "real" winter weather since then, and I have the proof below.

Isabella and I. Is it just me, or is she only a head shorter than me? She almost fits in my shoes!! Very, very strange indeed. I'm thinking she was just a toddler the other day....

Saoirse giving us a very funny look. She and Flannery were sharing a seat, trying to stay warm, in the 'freezing cold'. :-)

Jedidiah and I. This is Jedidiah's new winter coat. He had just gotten it that evening and wouldn't take it off! Too funny. You can see he has a graham cracker in his hand he was munching on. We were making s'mores! Yummo!

Jeremiah just tending the fire, deep in thought, thinking about some deep, deep theological issues no doubt :-) Ok, probably not. He got lots of "advice" about tending that fire! Mostly coming from certain 11, 9, 6 and 4 year olds :-)

Here is a cute picture of Moira. Growing, growing, growing. Jeremiah had taken the time to scan a whole bunch of pictures into the computer recently so I've been seeing a lot of little Moiras and Isabellas. And it is always a shock when I do!

Saoirse examining sticks to see if they are proper for roasting marshmallows. So many things to consider :-).

Isabella, Jeremiah and Jedidiah all hanging out. At this point Jed was getting sleepy. He did eventually fall asleep in my arms. We had a wonderful time around the fire. It is one of those things wonderful you want to do it all the time, but one of the things that makes it special is that it isn't done all the time! I hope that made sense.

OK, this seems like a total random picture! Ha, like I said I was being lazy!! This is a glimpse of what type of cloth diapers I have. Some people do a whole diaper stash picture, but again.....I'm too lazy! Some were in the dryer, some in my room, some in the bathroom, some....you get the idea. My supply consists of prefolds (the large flat rectangles on the left), Fuzzy Bunz (in the middle, I have mostly white ones, but a few colored), and my new loved Prowraps. We needed to extend the diaper stash so that I didn't HAVE to wash diapers every day. I've been using these diapers for a good two months or more now. I wanted to use them when Jonah was a newborn, but he would literally cry if we put cloth diapers on him as a newborn! He's outgrown that, thankfully.


These are the Fuzzy Bunz and the Prowrap with the prefolds in them. You can see I left some of the prefold hanging out of the Fuzzy Bunz. The FB have a pocket to put in the prefold. With the wrap there is no need for diaper pins. I LOVE the new wraps. I also love the FB, especially for night time, as they wick the moisture away from the baby's skin.

This is what happens when you have given up naps, but still need them :-) I had gotten him down from his feeding and he climbed up in the computer chair to watch the screen saver (it is set with rotating through all our pictures) and he conked out!

Proof that it did indeed get cold here! This is Isabella enjoying the snow. It is a bit dark out because it is only 7 AM. Hey, around here you need to get out in the snow ASAP, as you never know when it will stop and melt away. We woke them all up to get outside for a bit.

Saoirse enjoying the snow. You have to love her winter wear!!! We brought down a large container of shows to pull out what boots or sneakers we had for them to keep warm in and this is what she pulled out!!! She is totally into fancy shoes!

Jedidiah really thought the snow thing was fascinating! After his time in the snow he came in and was looking through the shoe box and had found some red and black snow boots. They are now his favorites and he wears them all the time!!!!! They are only twice his size!!

Flannery contemplating the snow? Unlikely! She usually doesn't stay still for long, so this is a rare shot :-)

Jedidiah all happy about his new found skill.....jumping off the couch.

Here he is mid-air! Too funny! He did this again, and again, and again.....

Jonah looking all cute! Too precious! I love the way he "talks" now. I need to get it on tape!

We had some pretzels and peanut butter for snack one day and this is what Isa did with hers!!

Here are Jed's new prized boots! He can't live without them :-)

We had a wedding here this weekend. The girls were supposed to be folding the laundry, not trying it on! They put on a wedding. This is the bride, being walked down the isle by the bride's disinterested father. An unfortunate byproduct of dysfunctional families....

The happy couple. Brings tears to my eyes (ha, ha,ha). And for the record Flannery was a MAN. :-)

Here is the flower girl with the newly married couple.

Here is Jonah and the ark! At least the animals of the ark! I didn't have a lot of time to write much, I guess that will have to wait till next weekend. I have been tagged by two people to do some meme's (I think that's what they are called). I'll post those next weekend too. This weekend Jeremiah was at a conference, and we had computer problems.
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without the 'net. Except for email. And I lived to tell about it :-) Our week started with Jedidiah eating us out of house and home! Well almost. For two days that boy ate and ate and ate!!! And this was the two days before we started the homeopathy. I have no idea what got into him. The rest of the week he has been eating way more that what he was, but not as much as the first two days of the week. I started him on his remedies on Wednesday. I've started a notebook dedicated to Jedidiah's health/feeding issues. Besides Jed's eating frenzy no other earth shattering news to share. I do have a bunch of pictures to upload. I only hope Blogger will not take all day to upload them.

Our week has consisted of staying on top of chores. I also stayed consistent with our family reading. We are currently reading (or read) 1 John, 2 John, Biblical Femininity and Fall with the Moody's. We are also working on memorizing Romans 12. We became members at our church this past Sunday. It has been a year since we started attending Hope Baptist. What a wonderful year it has been! Let's see....I've supervised a couple of the girls cooking dinner. Funny thing was that one dinner that Moira made she was a bit heavy handed with the spices. Jeremiah starts eating it and is raving about how wonderful it is (not knowing that Moira made it). He tells me that I should always make it this way, and then I tell him that Moira made it! So he says, well then make sure she makes it next time :-) Hey, maybe I'll work myself out of a job :-) We also had some SNOW this week.

just some random pictures

Good morning all! This post was in draft form from last week. I decided I would just make a new post with a bunch of pictures in it. However Blogger is having issues with loading pictures. UGH! Sooooo I decided to just bring this post up and add the few captions to finish it. The below writing was written last week, or whenever these things actually happened :-) I'm so detailed aren't I? Ohhh I hear the baby awake! Ok, enjoy these couple of pics. (I even added text in green at another attempt to post this a few days ago!)

We have a busy day ahead of us. Jeremiah and the oldest two girls are out playing ultimate frisbee. When they get back it will be a quick lunch and then to the library and grocery shopping. When we get back from that it will be a quick pick up and prepare for some dinner guests.

Yesterday was so nice out. We got outside for a while. I am very happy that the bee population decided to not be out in force as they were the day before. I do not know what was up with the yellow jackets around here. I am thinking something disturbed their nest? All spring and summer we had no problems. We had a couple get in the house due to the front door being open so I can watch the kiddos playing on the porch. Other than that, we didn't have a problem. Well the other day we had bees land on me, Flannery, Jedidiah and Saoirse. And poor Isabella actually got stung by one in the afternoon. The only reason we were outside at that point was because we found a kitten up in a tree. So now we have two cats!

I wrote this post a couple of days ago. I figured that I would just continue writing in this post since I had it as a draft. No sense starting another post. We had a great day today. For the most part :-) Poor Isabella woke up and said, "I think I have the chicken pox." Thankfully she didn't! She was just having an allergic reaction to her antibiotic she was taking. She had head to toe hives! Even benedryl didn't touch them!

It finally happened! Our boy was dressed in a pink frilly dress. I had suspicions that the girls were up to something. They are usually not that willing to take the baby! Ha ha! They came out saying, "Look ma at your little girl!" Um, yeah......I am sure Jonah will be thrilled to see these some years from now :-)

Look at this adorable baby! This green sweater is like 30 years old!!!! It was one of mine or my siblings sweater! As is the bonnet. It is a bit on the girly side, but it still makes a cute baby. :-) Yes, my girls are having too much fun with baby clothes. They have the girl clothing in their baby doll basket. Jedidiah was a bit too fragile for them to hold and carry, so they are heaping all their pent up baby dressing desires on poor Jonah.

And this was just too funny not to post. This is Jeremiah enjoying tea with the girls. They got all dressed up and fancied up their small round table for tea. This is what happens when Daddy joins in!

My lack of posts

I'm still here. I've just been busy lately. We've had appointments, a bonfire, park days, errands, etc. There seem to be a million things going on around here. Jeremiah and I have been having a lot of discussion about the children and their discipline and education. There are so many things tied in together that it is hard to know where one thing ends and another begins. For a time you will see less of me here. In order to seek answers to some pressing questions we have to address some of the issues and direction that we need to go in with the girls I will be fasting from the computer. For me fasting from food is not a big deal. And with nursing I didn't want to attempt it. However the computer does have a hold on me, so I wanted to give it up to focus on crying out on behalf of my children. My goal will be to write in my real live paper journal :-) and then on Saturdays to come on here and catch you up on things that are happening. My goal is to dive into God's word, to pray, pray and pray some more. Not only do I have things to call out to God about my children but about myself as well. In the last couple of months I've just been feeling uncertain about where I stand before the Lord. His word says to test ourselves. And I've been doing that with some hesitation. Right now it is a bit hard to explain. I just know what the Bible says is the mark of a Christian and that my life does not seem to match up to well with that. There are just some very elemental things like.....yelling at my children, that has me concerned. No, we will never be perfect. I do believe that the Lord did not die for us so that we would continue on in our same manner. I know there has been change in my life, but there are also some very deep seated issues that have remained. And one thing I know is that the Bible is clear about anger. So I just really need to call out to the Lord to show me what I need to be doing. My anger IS affecting my children. It IS affecting my marriage. And that is for certain. The Lord died to forgive us our sins, and when we ask for forgiveness we are to also repent of our sins. Repent means to make a 180 degree turn. To turn totally away from it. I can't say I've repented if EVERY day I am yelling at my children. I know I have said that I have forgiven my husband for past things, but I am NOT living like I have. And these are concerns of mine, as they should be. So between my concerns and the pressing needs of our children I will be offline during the week, and check in here on Saturdays. Do pray for our family if you are led. I would appreciate that.

In Jedidiah news....I talked to the homeopathic doctor today. I want to be very excited about what he had to say, and I am, at the same time I'm nervous that this may be another dead end. However since no one before has had a single clue as to what may be going on with him, the fact that he seems to have an idea AND that he has remedies for this has made me a bit hopeful. He has also cured other children who were 3 to 6 years (!) behind in growth and they are now at a normal height and weight. This has been a very long road. I have to say I need to be thankful that in perspective and relative to what other people may have gone through it really has not been that long. But at the same time, for almost two years we have known that something has been wrong but have not been able to figure out what. The major factor he believes is contributing to Jed's situation is mercury. The other is the allergy meds that I took while pregnant with him. So we will be doing remedies to purge his body of those things. Quite a few of his symptoms (teeth grinding, sensitivities with his mouth, the profuse sweating and the supposed milk allergy) he believes are from mercury toxicity. We will see what happens. We should be getting some of the remedies in the mail very soon and will start on the immediately. He told me though to not expect an overnight change, as homeopathy takes time to work. At least in these cases of purging the body of the toxins. He had some very interesting things to say about systemic yeast. He does believe Jed has that, HOWEVER, yeast is not the problem. He believes that the body is using the yeast as a defense mechanism. He says that the body is using the yeast to get rid of the mercury. I'm too tired to go into it all right now. But it is fascinating. So to get rid of the yeast would not be good as his body would try to resort to some other means to rid his body of the toxins. If we get rid of the toxins we will get rid of the yeast. I'm very worn out emotionally from all of this. The highs, the lows, the waiting.....I really want to be done with this. If it was me suffering from something that would be one thing, but for it to be with my child....I'm just not so patient. But I really don;t have a choice now do I? :-) I'll make sure to tell you all how he makes out with this. I really can't wait for the day that I can post a picture of a healthy Jedidiah! Oh, the thought just makes my heart jump!

Have a wonderful night. I am going to post a separate post with just pictures and captions. I would love to blog about it all, I just don't have the time right now. Enjoy.

Sense and Sensibility

I'm not sure how many of you have been over to Sense and Sensibility before, but there are gorgeous dress patterns there! And now they are going to be selling their patterns through instant downloads (ePatterns)!! How neat is that? I've always wanted to Edwardian Apron pattern. As some of you know I love aprons, and this has been on my wish list for some time. Do go check out the patterns:
Sense and Sensibility ePatterns


As a side note I have a couple of posts that are in draft form right now. I've not had the time to get to them. It seems something always comes up.

A little clarification

Just a clarification on my last post, most specifically the wording of it. It was brought to my attention that the wording may have given the wrong impression. I guess I was on such a high from the good news that I wrote it out quickly. The wording of the title gave the impression that we did not have hope for Jedidiah in the past. Or where that hope came from. So to clear that up I wanted to say that our hope has always been in the Lord. I am a very poor writer, and I usually stumble for words. The word hope that I used was in relation to the hope of a cure from a medical nature. It is hard to put your child into the arms of God. Even though I know that He can take better care of them than I. I have been praying for healing for Jedidiah. And to see that the healing may be at hand is a glorious feeling. The Lord has been very, very gracious to us. There are times I ask, why, why is my son still sick? Why does he have a tube? Why is he not growing, why....why....And you know what...I still don't have any answers :-) I will say that I know the Lord uses all things of the believer for good. And I can rest knowing that good will come of this. Maybe he is preparing us for helping others with medical needs. I really don't know. I do know that at present I must persevere in the things He has shown for me to do. And that happens to be why I have not been on the computer so much of late. I've been getting the house organized, and making sure the girls are doing chores. We have a very exciting season ahead of us. One of training and tying heart strings. I will share more on that later.

As a side note (I think my whole blog is a list of side notes :-)) we got out early today to vote. No lines, it was in and out for us. There has been so much talk on the elections. I don't get into all of that "stuff". Not that politics is not important. But truly, it is only the Lord who can change the heart of a king. And no matter who wins we will need that divine changing! I have heard about people fasting and praying for our country these last few days. I do believe we will need more of that even after the elections. I think there is a very good reason that the Lord continually told the Israelites to remember His deeds AND to tell them to their children and their children's children. It is easy to loose hope for our country, with all the news that we hear. However it is proven that when a people come together and humble themselves before the Lord that He will intervene. We are prone to forgetting. I can't tell you how many times when I have read a passage that I thought, now HOW could they have done that!! The Lord did this and this and this and they STILL went off and rebelled, etc. Then I have to stop and realize that we (I) are NO different. I have these amazing testimonies of the work of the Lord in our life and I will still loose hope or fear. I turn my attention elsewhere. When what I really needed to do was to proclaim the works of the Lord.

Jedidiah's speech therapist will be here soon. I need to go put some food together while the baby is sleeping. He's not been napping too well as of late.

Hope for Jedidiah

I don't have a lot of time to post right now, and not sure when I will get some! So I thought I would put up this encouraging news we got. As a side note I do have a lot of other things I want to write about and pictures to post, maybe one of these evenings. Ok, the other day at church someone told me about their homeopathic doctor. They were concerned about telling me as some people are a little leery of alternative medicine (not at our church, just people in general). She told me some remarkable stories of their family's success with homeopathy. She gave me the number for the doctor. She told me he would be honest about whether he thought he could help us. After all money doesn't grow on trees and spending more money on something that may not work would be depressing in many ways. So I got to talk with the doctor himself. At first as I was telling him Jed's history there didn't seem to be anything this doctor could grab onto and say, hey, I can work with that. I was getting very discouraged. I did, however, have a list of all sorts of "symptoms" that Jed has and figured I just needed to keep on going with it. There has been one mystery symptom that Jeremiah and I felt was a clue to Jed's problems. However any of the doctors we have seen have either dismissed it, or admitted that it meant something, they just didn't know what. Jedidiah used to sweat a lot. When he stopped nursing he stopped to sweating. Then after I started pumping milk to give to him through his tube after Jonah was born he started the sweating thing again. This is a lot of sweat, and it's toxic tasting. I mean I've tasted sweat enough to know that this wasn't normal sweat. So I tell the doctor this and finally, FINALLY we may have something to work with!!!!! He says that sweating and the fact that it was worse with milk is a sign of mercury toxicity!!!! WHOA!!!!! I told him that Jed has not been vaccinated. He asked me if I had any fillings, I said no. Then he asked if I was vaccinated....yes. He said, that's where he got it from. His whole life we felt he was allergic to milk, but a recent blood test ruled that out. Now we have a reason for why he reacts to milk. Milk makes a mercury reaction worse. The breast milk would have had the mercury in it, making him have a higher reaction when he was on it. People, people, people you have NO idea how excited I was to hear this. I have not been so excited about a possibility than I am of this. I know I should be reserved and wait and see, but I am literally bursting at the seams. So I had to share. Get ready for another loop in our roller coaster ride----one that I am hoping is the last loop :-) Ok, need to go make lunch. Like I said I have a bunch of other things to post later. Stay tuned :-)

I have received some great comments on my vaccination post! I was pleased, as
I was a bit worried, as it is such a hot topic. I wanted to put my sisters
comment here in a post to be read by all. She is an RN and her insights into
this controversy is worth reading. I didn't want anyone to miss out on it! Ok, off to eat lunch
and
clean, clean, clean!

Well your dear sister here just couldn't NOT post a comment here after
reading all these other wonderful comments. As an RN, I feel like I am a
hypocrite going into work. It's not just about vaccinations, but about all
synthetic drugs massed produced and pushed onto people. I have to administer
these drugs in my job, but I do not believe they are doing anyone any good
(like
vaccinations). SO while I feel I am doing more harm by administering
these
drugs, I do my utmost to "preach" about natural healing, herbs, and
doing things
the way God intended us to do. Not only do I preach to the
patients, but also
their families and co-workers. Now I have found myself in
a predicament. We
are
highly encouraged by the hospital to get our flu shots (they are FREE after all
-
please note the sarcasm!). But I will be refusing mine. The sad thing is most
people I work with are shocked at my decision as they will view me as a
carrier
and probably the cause of any of our patients contracting the flu (I
work on the
respiratory floor). It is very sad that doctors and some nurses
cannot
understand that people with already compromised immune systems are
more likely
to die after getting a flu or pneumonia vaccine as they are if
they got the
disease in the first place. Vaccines temporarily suppress
your immune system (for
how long is still debatable), so if one
is already ill with something else,
then having one's immune system
suppressed even for a short time can open the
door for some serious problems
to occur in the body. So the entire problem for
me is I will be out of a job
by next year (which is fine as we only plan to have
me work for one year).
But just knowing I will be fired if I refuse my flu shot
is completely
unacceptable to me... by next year word is that flu shots will be
mandatory
for all hospital workers (at least here in Rochester). This year we
have to
sign a waiver if we refuse-which of course being the trouble maker that
I am
I will try to get away with not signing it! Anyway keep sticking to your
beliefs and of course the most important thing for all to know is KNOW YOUR
RIGHTS. We may live in a "free" country, but our rights our violated all the
time. And if someone "talks" to you more than 2 times about vaccinations and
you
have made your point very clear, just threaten to sue for harassment, because
that is what it is...pure harassment. Gee I cannot wait to get my license to
practice as a naturopathic doctor!!!!!

a great site

My friend Bethany put together two wonderful posts on vaccinations. She has a bunch of links that I have never been to. I am excited about checking them out. Well, excited as one can be learning that I put toxins into my children.....ok, you know what I mean (at least I hope you do!). Anyway, please stop by her blog and check out her posts here and here.

This week I will be a bit busy. That's putting it mildly. I am undertaking the reorganization of our house. Not for the faint at heart! OK, it's not that bad, but I did request help from our church as I have not been able to get anything done due to all the normal everyday stuff that takes up my time as it is. I had our wonderful helper, Grace, come today. I got the whole family room done and almost the changing room done! Yipee! I have plans on writing a post on the plans I have to revamp our family situation. You see we have lazy children. We have disrespectful children. We have disobedient children. Trust me, it's not pretty. Well, sin never is. So Jeremiah and I have plans to turn things around. The plans are flexible as life always likes to throw you a few unknowns. And we know that without the Lord nothing we do will work. Yet at the same time the Lord commands us to train our children and to teach them diligently the ways of the Lord. Something we have obviously failed in. So when I get the chance I'll write that out on my blog. It will be neat to see what we do, what worked, what didn't, etc.

Off to get some granola bars made for tomorrows snacks.

Have a great day!

Vaccinations

Donna had asked me a question regarding vaccinations. What do we do with them? Good question! With our first two children we had them fully vaccinated. However, towards the last couple of shots with our second I had been doing more research on the matter. I was uneasy about what I had read and we spaced them out some more. Then with our third child, along with doing a whole lot more reading and having a midwife who was against vaccinations we decided not to give her any. I have to say, to this day, she is my child that somewhere deep inside of me I feel something would have happened to her. Maybe not severe, but something. I have never been able to shake that feeling whenever I continue my research. I have had a doctor try to scare me into them. He would not let up, so we left the practice. With all the doctors visits with Jed I was sure it was going to be an issue, and with one doctor it was. The doctor who admitted us to the hospital never said a word about it....until afterwards on a return followup visit. The visit was supposed to be about how we were going to manage Jedidiah's feedings. However, the whole visit was nothing but vaccinations! I kept going back to the topic of how I was supposed to feed my child (the doctors at the hospital wanted that to be between our doctor and me so this doctor was the one who was supposed to be giving me how much, when, and all that other feeding info I had been waiting for..). He would literally start a sentence on the topic of feeding and stop, and then go on and on about how we don't vaccinate. I NEVER got the information I really needed! He's worried that my child MIGHT get some horrid disease, BUT never mind that he WOULD die if I couldn't figure out how I was supposed to feed my child. Um, yeah, that makes a lot of sense :-) He told me that if Jed was to come down with a fever that I would have to take him to the ER, as he was not willing to see him because we didn't vaccinate. Ok, sorry for the little rant there, maybe I just had some pent up emotions from the whole ordeal :-) We currently have a wonderful doctor. He told us when we first visited that if we wanted vaccinations that we would have to get them somewhere else as he did not have enough patients to stock them. And he's never said a word about it since! He's the kind of doctor who actually listens to you!!!! A very rare novelty!!!! I told him even if we moved half way across the state I would still keep him as our doctor. He is fine with me trying our natural remedies. And he knows my hard stance on antibiotics. That is why I respect his opinion. Last winter when we were all getting the flu he told me that the Jeremiah, the girls and I were fine to ride it out but that although he wouldn't tell us what to do he felt very strongly that Jed take the Tamaflu meds. And ya know what, we did! I was able to take his advice because he knows how I feel about meds and wouldn't recommend them if it weren't truly necessary. Ok, now I'm off on another tangent.

My best advice, Donna, would be to really ask around. Maybe find a homebirth meetup as a lot of women in them are usually more into natural remedies and ask them who they see for their doctor. And I would also recommend that you always continue researching. I know that if we were to go out of the country that I would have my children vaccinated. Only because at that point a lot of factors change. I believe that God has made our bodies to work. Yes they fail at times because we live in a sinful world, but he gave our bodies mechanisms to fight disease. Also, I have read enough to know that proper nutrition and good hygiene go a long way to fight off illness. But other countries may not have those God ordained sanitary conditions to fight off disease. So I am not a total die hard antivaccinationist (is that a word?). No matter which decision we make regarding vaccinations, we are taking a risk. Which risk are we willing to live with? Which is also why I feel that it is my duty (to my children) to feed them well. I recently mentioned that we have had more sugar in our diet than I would like. Sugar is a big, bad, no-no. It totally renders your immune system useless for a few hours. You have some sugar at breakfast, then at dinner, then at.....it really adds up, leaving your body without its proper defense.

There are so many aspect to talk about regarding vaccinations. For example the number of people who still come down with the diseases that they have been vaccinated against. Or the fact that some of the diseases have been making a comeback, but they have mutated, so now vaccinations are not effective against it. Or the pro-life factor, that there has been vaccines made with aborted fetal tissue. It doesn't matter how "watered" down it is now, some poor aborted baby was used to make it. And of course all the issues that vaccines hinder your immune system. I mean, how many people do you know have ever had 7 diseases attack them at once? Yet they give that all-in-one shot that has 7 vaccines in it. It may only be 5 vaccines in the all-in-one, but I know they were trying to get one approved for 7. I mean 7!!!! And this is on infants, a wee little person, who's body is still forming at a rapid rate, and it's body is learning how to work with the world. So lets inject them with a bunch of poisons. Yes, those poisons are in very small quantities, but it's also going into a very small person. Never mind all the doctors and nurses who won't even get some of the newer shots coming out now. Why is that? Oh, am I going on and on again? I'm sorry! I hope I even answered your question with all these babblings!! If not, or if you have any others, feel free to ask.

On a side note we went to our church's reading of Deuteronomy. I didn't get to listen to all of it as I had a fussy baby. But even still it was really neat to see all the families gathered together reading great lengths of God's word. Children sitting, listening as well. Although some children colored, or fell asleep. Even some of the older girls and some of the women were knitting or crocheting as they listened. There was a small break for some snacks. The evening went from 6 pm until 9:15 or so. I wish I could convey just how special I think our church is. We are not perfect to be sure, but there is just something about having the families as a whole participating. There are a lot of us in the church who did not have a Christian upbringing. There are many times when we are trying to find our footing. And what a blessed thing to be able to go to an older woman or another family who may be generations strong in the faith to turn to. It is really amazing. And I also love that I will get the truth, as hard as it may be, as much as I don't want the truth at that moment. But that truth is given in love. It's not watered down, nor is it shoved down either. We also have a diverse body, with interesting talents and interests. I just heard that one of the ladies knows how to cut hair. She had told someone else that she would show her how to cut her boys' hair. I said, "Hey, lets make it a class! I need to learn too!" Another lady just told me today that she would help me pick out paint colors for our house. She told me that when I was ready that she would come with me to pick out the colors! Then there are a bunch of women who sew, or knit, or......the list goes on. One young gentleman came to help us with our computer. And lets not forget all the wonderful hands that help with the young ones. I usually don't know where Jonah is on Sundays! He's off with one of the many girls waiting 'in line' to hold him :-)

I seem to be in a rambling mood this evening! I must be off to bed. Even though Jed may have gone to bed later than normal, that doesn't mean that he will sleep in later than normal.

Have a blessed day!

A day at the fair

Oh, boy, am I tired! Jeremiah called me from work on Monday to say, "We're going to the fair this Thursday!" The last time we were at the fair Moira was a baby! It was a very chilly morning, in the 30's and 40's. So we had to wear layers, which we shed most of by the time we left. We spent a lot of time looking at the animal exhibits and some old farm machinery. Both boys had gone through their first change of backup outfits with in the first half hour! The girls got to go on one ride each. We were very blessed by a woman who came up to us in the parking lot asking if we had ride tickets yet. She had bought a bunch in advance at almost half the price and wanted to know if we wanted to buy some off of her. Wonderful! We were also able to get admission cheap as it was can food day, where admission is 4 cans of food per person. All of the older three girls went on the ferris wheel. TOTALLY not my choice!! Those dare devils :-) They went on with Jeremiah and a neighbor friend of ours from a few years ago. We also came across two other people/families from two past churches of ours. Pretty neat! A great time was had by all. I have to admit after a half day keeping track of 6 kiddos in a VERY crowded place, I was ready for home. Poor Jonah man is totally overstimulated. I think he has finally konked out. Jeremiah tagged teamed me for baby care. Jonah does great when we are out and about, but when we get home, he comes totally undone. He just screams and screams, and....well screams until he finally passes out from exhaustion. This is why we haven't been going to prayer meeting and Sunday night study at church, as he just can not handle it. He will outgrow it, it will just take some time.

So yesterday as I was making mental notes of everything we would need for fair day I realized that Jonah did not have a winter hat. It finally did get to 60 degrees today, but for the most part it was breezy and chilly. And if you are a wee babe with no hair....you need a little covering :-) So what does one do when they realize their child has no hat? With no transportation to get said hat? Make one! So I got on the computer where I knew I had saved some patterns. But then I got the notion of making a "fancy" hat. Call me silly, go ahead. And what does one do when they don't find a suitable pattern online for said fancy hat? Well you make it up! Yes, that is what I did. And by golly I think it is the cutest thing! I suppose I am not being very humble here am I? Ha, ha! And what makes it even cuter is when you put it on the baby! I don't have pictures of him wearing it, but I do have pictures of the hat solo. You'll have to take my word for it that it indeed looks even cuter on the baby.

I was able to take out a frozen meal to pop in the oven. And even though the girls were up early today and walking all day, they are in the house bouncing off the walls!!! Calgon, take me away! Here are a few pictures from the day and other miscellaneous ones:

A very studious Jedidiah. He likes to pull out the Bible and sit on the couch to "read" it. You can also find him throughout the day sitting here and there throughout the house reading books of all kinds.

Who's teaching who? Bible time with Daddy :-)



Saoirse out by our birdfeeder. She is such the ham! She loves getting her picture taken.

Here is the "fancy" hat I made. It's a dinosaur. I thought it was pretty darn cute.

This here is a man in a little caged "room" with some honey bees! I know you're loving this Tracy :-) Anyways we were able to ask him a lot of questions about beekeeping, something we are interested in. We go through a lot of honey. A lot. So why not get our own bees? The 'sad' thing about this time with the beekeeper were when school groups (or part of school groups) would come up to watch. They had these questionaires with them that they were to check off as they went along. So they came up and asked the predesignated question and went on their way. Now, I'm not against prompting children with ideas to think on, or questions to ask. However this was most definitely a case of what I would call, 'canned procedure'. There was no thinking on the children's part, just ask the required question and move on. Our family was asking all sorts of questions, including Jeremiah and myself. But this wasn't just because we are interested in bees. As a matter of fact the girls were really eyeing the horses on the other side of the building at the time. But they still were engaged with what was in front of them. Ok, sorry to go on about that, just an observation that I made during the day.

Here are the dare devil girls! The girl between Isa and Moira is one of our past neighbors. It was great to see them again. It was funny because Jeremiah asked the Mom to convince me of naming one of our future girls (if we should be blessed with one), Fiona. Fiona, happens to be the Mom's name :-)

This was one of the calves there at the Fair. It was sooooo cute. It kept sticking its head out of the fencing and trying to munch on the girls dresses! They had signs all over to not touch the animals, but even I wanted to give this cute calf a pat on the head.

The dare devils rolling past us. I uploaded the wrong picture, I meant to put the one up of all of them waving.....so just imagine that they are doing that here :-) I really hate waiting for the pictures to upload....yes, just call me lazy.




This is the ride that the two younger children chose. Jedidiah got all giddy when Jeremiah put him up on the horse. He was all smiles!

There you have it. Our day at the fair. I am hoping everyone will go to bed early. I want to hit the hay! Tomorrow night our church is doing a reading of the book of Dueteronomy. We will go to that for a bit. Well I must be off, Jed is asking me to read him a book.

I used to be smart....

at least that is what I have been telling myself today. We weighed Jed just the other day to find out that he has LOST two ounces! Um, ok, now what are we doing wrong? Well it appears that I happened to have forgotten a very, very, very crucial element of this whole mission to gain weight. And that is this: Once Jed has gained weight his current calorie needs go up. So we need to periodically check to make sure that we are meeting his calorie needs. I think because he spent so much time NOT gaining weight, and with the new additions of homemade formula and a handful of supplements (that take quite a bit of time to prepare) I had forgotten that rather simple, but VERY important concept. Until today. It finally dawned on me that with his recent weight loss that I should check his current calorie needs. Um, yeah.....we are only like short some 300 mls- or thereabouts. I can be thankful that he has only lost two ounces. So today we increase his feedings. I am hoping that he will be back on the rise soon :-)



Saoirse woke up with this horrid sounding coughing thing going on....think croup. But within a few minutes she was ok, and hasn't coughed again all morning. Isa had a sore throat yesterday and so I am assuming that has something to do with Saoirse. It looks as if the fight is on to keep everyone well. I have to say that I have been lacking in the healthy menu area. It's not that its really bad or anything, just letting more sugar creep in than I should. But, hey, there is only so much I can do!



Here is a funny: Last night the girls and I were looking on the web about the couple who just had identical triplets. I have always been fascinated by multiples, and what would be more exciting than multiples that are identical? So we are looking at a video on YouTube and on the side bar there is a video on conjoined twins. The girls asked to watch it. No biggie, or so I thought. Afterwards I sent them all off to get ready for bed. Flannery comes back to say goodnight, then proceeds to sit down in a chair next to me. I tell her she has to go to bed. She remains sitting with "the look". The look she gets when she is freaked out about something. She tells me she is scared. I ask her what she is afraid of (she had recently been afraid of her closet, so I was expecting something along those lines). She tells me, as she is crying, that she is scared because of the movie. Movie? What movie? The one we just watched she tells me. Hmmmm, the movie we just watched....you mean the one about the conjoined twins? Yes, and she starts bawling. I ask her why she is afraid. Come to find out that she thought that this sort of thing could happen to anyone at anytime. Poor thing! I think she was afraid she was going to wake up with another person attached to her. I assured her that was not possible. I explained, with a drawing, how this sort of thing happens. She was still a bit freaked out this morning as she herself wasn't feeling well and asked me if I was sure that things like that wouldn't happen. Ahhh, children :-)

We are in the throws of organizing. Things are going pretty well. I have to do what I can in between feeding children, and taking care of the baby. At least the house looks decent at this moment. So I am able to tackle little areas at a time. I will take a pictures around our house when I am through.

And one last note. An odd one I am sure to some. I am not even sure how to word it, and really it probably isn't something that needs to be "talked" about, but it has been on my mind now for days. I don't have a lot of time to make comments on other peoples blogs. I usually just read and am on my way. I only leave comments on my family and friends blogs. But every once in a blue moon I will make a comment or more likely ask a question on someone elses blog. There is a blog I visit regularly. I have learned soooo much from her writing. There are things she writes about that I don't always agree with, but that is not a problem to me, it's her blog :-) However, lately, she has had a lot to write about the "End Times". The whole "Great Tribulation", rapture and what not. I wrote to her to suggest that everyone re-read those scriptures that talk about those 'matters' in light of who Jesus was actually talking to, and when He Himself said those things would take place. That is all I said, along with telling her how much I loved her blog. My comment was not published. I was bummed. I was a bit upset only because I know that a lot of people read her blog, some who are new Christians, and others who are not. I have been reading a book on this matter called "End Times Madness". And one theme that runs through the book (at least as far as I have read) is that when Christians start making a big deal about what they perceive as the "signs" that they see that say the end is near and then the end doesn't come....well that discredits the Bible. But the end, at least the end that Jesus was talking about, already happened! It wasn't the end of the world, it was the end of the old covenant, and that end was going to consist of Jerusalem being judged for crucifying the Messiah. So the events in Matthew 24 and Revelation have already taken place. We are not waiting for these things to happen. And each generation has been able to take their current events and wrap them around Scripture to say...."Look, the end is at hand!" But the end already came. So for anyone who has worries or has questions on this matter I would guide you back to the Bible to see what it has to say for itself, and also the book I mentioned. Not to say we don't live in scary times, but they don't have anything to do with the "end times" Jesus was speaking of.

Gotta go, I've got a fussy baby on (or I should say, IN) my hands :-)

We are still here

....at least I am. Jeremiah took the girls and Jed all out. It is just Jonah man (who is sleeping) and I. I really have to take this time to get some stuff done. Our house has totally gotten out of hand! UGH!! Today was a better day of tackling it all. We were out all day on Wednesday. We had to pick up three older boys (to help with the wheat order), drop of Jeremiah to work, go to the park, pick up the wheat, and drop off the boys. We ended up staying at our friends house until it was time to pick Jeremiah up from work. Needless to say that busy day totally overstimulated poor baby boy. It took him an hour to calm down and go to sleep. But we had a great time fellowship. I know I was going to blog about a few other things that went on this week. And I would if I could *remember* them! Hmmmm, maybe it will come to me later. Probably when I am in the middle of something and I don't actually have the time to post! But of course.

Jeremiah and I listened to a great, GREAT lecture/sermon tonight. Not sure if any of you have heard of Dr. S. M. Davis or not. We listened to his talk on how to stop the curse of the rebellious child. I also listened to a talk by him earlier today (as I was eating lunch and cleaning) about breaking family curses. Yeah....I/we needed that. And we will keep needing it. It is definitely something we will listen to again and again. I've been listening to a talk by Victoria Botkin on homeschool. It is great stuff. I was kind of able to breathe a sigh of relief. Sometimes I start to wonder.....am I doing this right? Am I missing something? We got some great ideas for the girls schooling and I am looking forward to hearing the rest of the talk sometime soon. Homeschooling is never static, nor should it be. We are always evaluating and re-evaluating what we are using and doing. We've been having some trouble with the history program we have been using this past year. I still think it is a great program, just not with a lot of children, IF you want their literature to match up with their history content. Sonlight takes a lot of time, and there isn't enough time for each child to be in their own level. So we have had Isa and Moira doing the same level. However Isa's literature is American History related, but the girls are in the Ancient civilization level in the history section. So this talk we have been listening to may just help us go the uncharted course. And it is reassuring to know that it can be done, and that it works. I'll try to remember to let you all know what we decide to do about it later on.

Right now I feel....um....hmmmm....not sure of how to word it all. It seems that my mind is just one big muddle right now. I know we need more of a routine/schedule. However in order for that to work I need to have children who are obedient. And that takes time, and a lot of work. In the mean time we are re-evaluating curriculum. And I seem to have a million and one things that I would like to teach them, or do. So I feel like I am being pulled in a million directions. I am thinking part of this feeling may be hormonal. The baby has been doing 7 hour stretches at night. This may be stirring up some hormonal soup or something, as evidenced by my wild dreams I have been having! I'm not sure if anyone else has crazy dreams when their hormones are wacky, but I do. So I need to hang on for the ride and wait for my mind to slow down.

Ok, this post seems totally nonsensical (is that a word?) Off I go to do some cleaning. Oh fun, oh fun!