Saturday, January 09, 2016

Out of the gates.....

...and we're off!  Or not.  The start of a new year, and I feel as if I am still in the starting gates, while everyone else is off like a shot.  Some of that feeling is due to some meds I am on.  Meds and I do not usually agree, which is why I like to steer clear of them.  I can't wait for them to be out of my system so I can think clearly.

So, it seems that our new years plans have been made.  Nothing like priorities that pop up and demand your attention.  Each of the things I want to talk about could have complete posts of their own, and will probably require know, when I have the time.  Ah, time.  It looks like our time will be taken up with cleaning....deep, deep cleaning.  Let me share.

I believe I told you all about the roof leaking.  And how there was this very large splotch of mold that appeared on Bella's ceiling.  We knew that we also had mold on one of the rafters in the attic.  A friend told us how we should take care of it, though we had to wait for the wood to thoroughly dry out.  That is hard to do when it is raining almost every day.  Even though the leak was fixed, it was considerably humid out, which does not lend well to wood drying out.

Fast forward a couple of weeks and Jeremiah went to the attic for some computer speakers.  He finds that there are mold spots on everything up stairs, or at least nearly everything.  That pretty much sounds like a nightmare to me.  I don't think you want to hear how I totally broke down about it all, thinking it was the end of the world and such, so I will skip that part.

We had someone come out (a professional) to access the damage.  He gave us some quotes before coming out so we would know the possibilities.  The good news is we will not be spending thousands of dollars for the mold clean up!!!  Although we do indeed have mold, he thought we could handle it on our own.  He explained what we needed to do.

Let me just say, that if I DID have thousands of dollars I would hire them!  Because it's going to be a lot of work.  A lot. We have to thoroughly clean the mold spots upstairs, have the wood dry, then coat the wood with polyurethane.  We learned that dead or alive, mold is toxic.  So it's good that the chemicals we used on the mold in our master bathroom killed off that mold.  It's bad, that we didn't know we needed to paint over it.  All this time (two years now?)  it has been spreading it's spores.  Lovely, just lovely.

On top of the cleaning, we finally get to tackle the mess of junk in the in throw most of it out, unless it is bagged up.  Come to find out the hours and hours I spent sorting, bagging and labeling all the years and years of clothing will be tossed out since certain children spewed it ALL over the attic.  I seriously think I am going to cry.  The thought of loosing all that clothing that is meant to be pass down is almost too much.

Anyways, after all of that, we have to wash down every single surface on every single item that is exposed to air downstairs in the living areas.  This includes the walls/doors, but not the ceilings.  We are to get every nook and cranny on everything.  This includes the furniture, toys, books, etc.  And then we are to wash all walls/floor each and every month from here on out.  Somehow I feel like I am in the twilight zone.  

Come to find out that pulling up the carpet is highly recommended, and he congratulated us on doing so.  But also come to find out that it was a very, very, very (did I say, "very"?) bad idea that we were all in the house when the carpet was being pulled up.  Funny, that is the same thing the ER doc told me this week....yes a visit I had due to breathing difficulty....probably from the carpets being torn up.  We still have some more carpet to pull, and I can assure you, NO ONE will be in the house when that is being done.  I think we may want to spend the night away actually!

Phew!  So that is what we will be up to in the coming months.  Mold clean up.  But due to the mold, other issues need to be addressed as well.  I have no doubt that we will feel much better when we get all that cleaning done.  But, I also know that mold just doesn't up and leave your body when you get it out of your environment!  So I started doing some research.  Fancy that, we don't have the money for health clinics, 20,000 supplements and the like.  Insert crying.  Also insert...lots of prayer.

Prayer.  Hmmm.  And here I stand at a crossroads.  I have been praying and praying for relief from the issues we have been dealing with.  I truly want to have the faith to receive healing, directly from the hands of the Lord.  I know it can happen.  But I'm not 'there' yet.  In the meantime, I may have something else to help us.  Something that may get us over all of our health issues.  I would love for all of us to be able to get homeopathic treatment, but again, unless we want to sell our house and live  under a bridge, that is not an option.  And since I feel I still have a long road to growing closer to the Lord, I needed another option.  While praying I remembered something that happened about 12  years ago.  Which lead me to search for a device that I had come across at a doctors office 12 years ago.  I assure you that will definitely need a post all of it's own.  But suffice it to say, I believe that this may be our 'healing' according to 'my faith' at the moment.

I still can't shake the feeling like I am letting God down.  Funny that I don't feel that way when I rushed off to the ER, or when I gave Merida antibiotics, or Jonah some Motrin, etc.  All I know is that the past few years we've seen some big time health issues over here.  Daily life is being affected.  Schooling is not getting done.  Cleaning does not get done when it needs to.  I feel like I can never catch up.  I am always tired.  I know things have to change, because they can not continue like they have been.  So I will continue to dive into the word of God, but I will also accept this man made help for the time being.  I really need to focus on other areas in my life that really ONLY God can help with.

Possibly, one day I may 'arrive' at that place of total healing by the hand of God alone.  Once I get this device I mentioned I'll post all about it.  Should prove to be interesting if nothing else :-)


Tracy Scarpulla said...

I'm right there with you regarding have a ton to do and wanting to do nothing but cry! Oy! Hang in there! God is with you even if you don't feel it!

HomeschoolMama said...

The only thing that counts is faith expressing itself through love. No matter what you do, if your motive is love, then you are walking in the way of life. Do not be anxious about anything. Pray with thanksgiving because you know He is a good, good Father, and you know that He knows what you need. He is a Father who gives generously. He is a Father who gives good gifts to His children. He is a Father who satisfies our desires with good things! Be encouraged! How great is the love the Father has lavished on us that we should be called children of God! That is what we are. We are His children! He wants good for us, in us and through us. Just love as He loved us. That is what we are called to do. Love is what we are called to be. Turn your eyes upon Jesus. Look full in His wonderful face, and the things of earth (all the things we think we need to have or do) will grow strangely dim in the light of His glory and grace. The fruit of His Spirit is love, joy, peace...May it be yours in abundance!

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